I Wanna Scream Sometimes
Released June 12, 2024
Take me away from this feeling
All of the walls keep closing in
I can survive but can’t breathe in
Head under water, I’m out of time and I’m
Paper thin
You say I’m prettier if I just
Erase what’s inside
I wanna scream sometimes
I wanna be by myself
I over analyse
My so-called friends are no help
Is there a place for me
Is there a place where I can be
Completely free
I try to escape my demons
I tell them that they’re not welcome here
But you bring them back every season
Lay into me till I’m weak and I’m
Paper thin
You try to tell me that I need to
Erase what’s inside
I wanna scream sometimes
I wanna be by myself
I over analyse
My so-called friends are no help
Is there a place for me
Is there a place where I can be
Completely free
Are you coming? It’s time to go.
I’m not ready.
I didn’t ask if you were ready. I didn’t ask about your feelings, or your emotional wellbeing.
Can I just get a moment to—
Look, If you want to do things your way,
We can send you back to the doctor five times a week and you can get
Every moment you want sitting in that chair and talking about your feelings.
On the other hand
If you want to continue living in the real world
I suggest you grab your shit and move your ass.
You can live the life of your dreams when you go back to sleep, okay
Let me paint this clear as day
I don’t owe you a simplification of my reality
I’m a man, I’m a goddamn superhero
Cuz I be looking at infinity what you labelled a zero
I’m a champion in spiritual warfare
Like a king or a goddess with the visage of an au pair
It’s no fair
You don’t wanna go there
How you gonna lead me to the promised land from nowhere
They don’t leave me alone
They don’t see me anymore
They don’t see me for who I am
They don’t see me, they don’t see me
The don’t leave me alone
They don’t perceive all the damage that’s been done to me no
No, no
No, no
No, no
No, no
Written by KIRU Jaleel Smith © May 15, 2024
